every email I have sent since December 2024 (I think) until now has not been DKIM-signed because /var/lib/rspamd (which contains my DKIM keys) did not exist
furthermore, some of them have had X-Spam headers added by my own mail server (or rather rspamd)
this explains why my mail keeps going to spam
(also / on my mail server was world-writable for some reason)